I have always been an active, friendly and very purposeful girl. I wrote a lot of goals and plans, but the phone was always ringing off the hook with calls with offers to meet. I managed to do everything and everywhere! A frantic rhythm, energy, a lot of desires and joy. When I finished school, I already understood what path awaited me. I was in a serious relationship, I was purposefully studying to become a psychologist, and I was working. At that time, I knew everything about my life, and imagined how it would develop - Profession, relationships, travel - I planned everything! but, as often happens, life does not go according to script. In my second year, many difficulties began in my personal life. After one of the strongest quarrels, he made a knight's move and arranged a surprise with a marriage proposal. I was stunned, went for reconciliation, accepted the offer and everything seemed to be getting better, but the initial trust was no longer there. We submitted an application, chose a place, prepared a list of guests, I even bought a wedding dress! And then again there was deception, a scandal - so strong that I took a taxi to my parents, just so as not to be left alone. Several days of silence, again attempts at reconciliation - but everything was lost. No trust, no joy - it was the collapse of most of my ideas about relationships, about life and love. Then I moved in with my parents, because without their support I thought I wouldn’t get out. The world collapsed, hopes, plans, future - everything went down the drain. I lost faith in relationships, in people, in sincerity and love. I lost myself. After all, until that moment I believed that life was worth living for the sake of love, if love is real, it will overcome everything. But she did not overcome it, and the main value was broken. Time passed, the pain did not subside, but it was necessary to continue living, outwardly everything returned to normal, but that cheerful, active girl was no longer there. At the age of 20, I had already become a person who had lost the most important value in life, all that was left were nightmares, black poetry and an icy abyss in my soul. I lived in this state for several more years. I had no strength, my interest in the outside world never returned, but I became well accustomed to the inner world - after work and classes, I ran home to finally be left alone with my melancholy, thinking - this is adult life: empty, meaningless, uninteresting. During my studies and travels around the inner world, I became interested in psychological counseling, took courses from the institute, where we were introduced to methods and techniques of work. It was a breath of fresh air, a small chance to find my place and my calling in the world. Choosing a direction according to soul, I decided to go to a psychologist myself, and then something interesting happened - after the first session, the therapist said that by all indications I was depressed, and advised me to go to a psychiatrist. I left the office dumbfounded... I studied for 5.5 years and how Could I not understand what was wrong with me? I thought that the life of an adult was simply difficult, so I had little strength. I believed that disappointments bring a change in the focus of perception - this is becoming an adult, seeing the imperfections of the world, but it turned out that I was fixated on these imperfections, and my psyche could not cope. This was my first psychologist. Every time I came to her, I was surprised to learn something new about myself. I became acquainted with physicality, learned to understand my reactions, to experience feelings with which I was filled to the brim but successfully ignored them. I chose a direction in counseling, the idea of ​​which is integrity, life today and the ability to build relationships with myself and other people. The ice has broken! this stage of life is like a second wind. My chest is warm, I wake up with interest, anticipating what the new day brings, completely different feelings are available to me - and they largely depend on me. Everything fell into place. With the help of a psychologist, I found my values, realized that we make me, me, and how not to be destroyed when life does not go according to script. Now I know what it’s like to be flexible but stable - to maintain balance and enjoy life. Yes, the world is unpredictable, everything changes and!