When pain comes, it doesn’t even occur to you to consciously endure it. I would like to immediately stop this unbearable state, like a terrible enemy invasion of our sovereign territory of peace and stability. Mental pain is especially unbearable... How can you decide to be with it and accept it as part of your life, like sprouts of new knowledge breaking through the thickness of habit. Notice how a figure quickly stands out from the background of unconsciousness? How can you love her because she doesn’t give you peace and the opportunity to freeze in smug satiety? And for the fact that her faithful allies - tears remove the veil from the eyeballs and wash away the cotton wool from the ears... How can you “be with her”? When does your head want to burst from the tension stored in it? When can you no longer endure it? And now the hand itself reaches out to the box with a red cross... and the quiet voice of inner wisdom simply screams: “Wait, you still have time to eat your pill!” But the hand is already greedily rummaging along the bottom of the empty box... and... the mind refuses to understand that it is empty! And then everything pales before the inexorable truth and the pain pierces with an understanding of the stupid meaninglessness of resistance and for some reason the intent of what is happening right now becomes clear. And now the pain spreads throughout the body, transforming into the joy of knowing and comprehending it, without a fierce struggle. And suddenly I stop feeling her, she leaves...