So I heard. Once, during long-term therapy, a middle-aged man answered his question about the meaning of life, women and all that. “I cheated in every way for many reasons, one I clearly realized. The word diamond bullet pierced my brain - “I was insecure in myself." I was sure that they all did not love me. I was attracted only to emotionally unavailable women. In all respects, I was like a little boy waiting for punishment. I tried to appear tough and strong, knowing that I was worthless. Every day I was afraid that they would finally figure me out and abandon me. All the time I was looking for an alternate airfield, a warm wing under which I could hide.” - Doctor, are you asking about the relationships in my family? Do you think it makes sense to talk about this? "Since childhood, I was caught between an iceberg and a hysterical woman. My parents hated each other, but lived together, in revenge for my past sins. I don’t want to talk about my parents. Better about Uncle Fed from Vologda. Better than a person I have never met. He was smart, educated and handsome, like an ancient god. It is impossible to love your children and wife like him. Uncle Fyodor was with them always and everywhere. I loved him and was jealous of his family. with me." - My father? This is more of a piece of furniture, not a person."In 2010, the wife packed her suitcase and said hasta la vista, to Uncle Fedya. She killed him with this. This story broke me too. How could I divorce him? Divorce the best man whom I knew. I realized that if a woman is capable of leaving an ideal man, then what chances do I have? I look at the world and see that everyone is getting divorced. Scoundrels, perverts, sadists live with their women for years, and they do. They rarely leave. Is this the norm or am I missing something?” -What does this teach me? “The good guys get abandoned and betrayed, and the “bad guys” get theirs. What was I supposed to conclude? I tried to be bad, very bad. It’s not that easy, but I did it. All these years, day after day, I I felt terrible. I needed to change. After changing a battery of psychologists, after years of therapy, I finally found myself in a healthy relationship. I opened up my past to my wife and completely emptied her. She understood and accepted me completely. I am faithful to her. Now, I am more confident in myself, confident in my worth. I live with a woman who is emotionally available and affectionate with me. I am not afraid of tomorrow. Being faithful and honest requires me to have a deep sense of security and self-respect. I no longer earn good grades as a child. I finally realized that I am a man. Being a man means being able to bear responsibility. I want children and I know that when they appear, I will be a good father. I will try to be an exception. .Love and throw your love into the water. Don’t expect change and dividends from love. Read more of my articles on my Yandex Zen channel. Subscribe and like.