Do we have arachnophobes? Shall we shake off the old days? Let's remember how it all began? Let's plunge into the very core of trauma and meet the Great Mother, weaving a web of illusions 🍄 Any trauma has at least 3 stages: 1-Birth. Usually this is the shortest stage. Living trauma, a place of rupture of mental tissue that could not withstand the magnitude of reality. 2-Repetition (reproduction). Chronicle. Trauma tries to become part of the psychic world. 3-Scarring (symbolization). Using the example of my arachnophobia, I will try to show these stages. #episode 1. Spiders as they are. Spiders have scared me since childhood. To the point of horror, bordering on madness. My grandmother had a half-open porch with small windows. These windows hypnotized and attracted me. Almost all year round, except winter, with the advent of darkness, black giant spiders appeared on the windows. It was an adrenaline-pumping attraction - approaching them on a safe distance and look, experiencing an incredible attraction of horror and disgust. Look at their fleshy black belly, long hooked paws. Brr 🙈Childhood is over, I left for the city, and spiders disappeared from my life for a while. But not forever. #Episode two Psychotic. Acting out. One day in the winter, my husband and I were walking home, I was pregnant with my first son, which means I was a bit of a spider myself. And then my gaze fell on the white frame of the window in which a black spot could be seen. I could have been mistaken, the distance was too far , but my heart had no doubt. “There’s a spider!” I shouted. “Please, look, is it him?” My husband went to the window, looked and returned with the words: “No, it’s dirt in the corner.” We came home. But something haunted me. “What if it was a spider after all?” “And you just didn’t want to scare me?” I asked. “Yes, that’s right,” my husband admitted with a blue eye. And my legs were already carrying me to that window. There was no spider. But in the recess between the casing and the wall, there was a dense funnel of cobwebs .The plan matured immediately. Now I will touch it with my wand, make sure that there is no one there and return home. The wand touched the entrance to the spider’s lair and rested against an obstacle. There could be no doubt. It was him. Then there was failure. I found myself at home roaring and accusing my husband of colluding with a spider. Pregnancy is no joke - all the carefully packaged madness comes out. #Episode 3. Spiders on the border of the liminal. My children 🕷 are not afraid at all. Aglaya has a big toy black Widow. She loves her very much. But when they take her things, not so much. This is a saying. The fairy tale happened at 12 o'clock at night, when I decided to take some thing from her closet, but in the dark I grabbed a spider that was guarding the territory from invaders. My cry woke me up even Spiderman on the edge of America. The children go crazy with delight when I nervously move the spider with a mop while cleaning😂 I can’t touch it with my hands, no way! The line between the symbolic and the real, oh, how thin! And what does arachnophobia mean in the space of psychoanalysis ?From an analytical point of view, phobias are a moment of fixation of anxiety. A phobia is anxiety grabbed by the tail and captured on your internal lens. According to Freudians, spider phobias often have sexual overtones. In addition, the symbolism of the spider gives a reference to the female genitalia. In one of Freud’s dream analysis, the spider’s web is correlated with female vegetation. In Abraham, the spider is a hidden penis located inside the female genital organ, which is attributed to the mother. For the Jungians, everything is simple. The spider is 2 polarities of the archetype of the Great Mother: the Creator - weaving the web of the Cosmos and the Devourer - waiting for her victims and sucking out their lives. In dreams, an abundance of webs can mean flooding with psychotic energy, its viscosity. But the Kleinians surprised. They have their own hypotheses about the emergence of arachnophobia. According to in their opinion, the spider reminds us of the original first scene of our origin. If you look from above, there is a spot of two bodies and 8 limbs merged in ecstasy (4 legs and 4 arms). I don’t know how you will live with this information, but it seems that spiders are bigger will not be just spiders) Share! Are you afraid of spiders or snakes, insects?) Favorite SHKYA - look - it’s mega funny 🔥" Egor??"