Well, there are just a few days left until the New Year. What I feel? I feel grateful. I have a lot of gratitude for everything lately. Was I a good girl? I think I tried to be good. Because it's a shame to be bad. It's a shame to be a bad wife, a bad mother, a bad employee, a bad friend. This shame comes with age. And it’s somehow beyond your age to do something bad. I also noticed that I haven’t been lying for a long time. No, well, little things don’t count. But on a large scale, I’m not lying. Not necessary. And this is a marker that I have what I previously lied about. And that's great too. And I also like myself. And although right now I am far from my ideal, this does not stop me from liking myself. And this is important. I learned to relax and forgive myself and myself. This is an important point. Very. Because I have high demands on myself. I often punished myself when it was necessary to punish someone else. And now I feel sorry for myself. I realized that feeling sorry for myself is good and correct. And it’s also good to cry when tension gets too high. And it's good to be upset. And just be in your feelings correctly. It's not right to be ruthless with yourself. And I was ruthless. I allowed myself not to feel sorry for myself. Is that bad. I let go of people and situations. And I won't go back to them anymore. Because in my head I defined myself as a good person who does not intentionally do bad things to others. I didn’t deceive or betray anyone. I responded to everything and everyone. I took all requests seriously and tried to help everyone who approached me. I think this is important. Because I myself am often embarrassed to ask for something, and sometimes I’m simply afraid of refusal. You can rely on me. I'm a reliable person. And this does me honor. I worked hard, studied hard, and did everything well. My conscience continues to torment me about one businessman with whom I once punished myself. Precisely myself. But I learned a good lesson - never blame yourself without guilt, remember that I am not the only one who decides everything, and everything depends not only on me. I allow myself to rest. And I will allow myself even more of it. I will try to take care of myself, in the sense of my internal state. I will take care of myself. I will no longer give myself any opportunity to consider myself guilty of anything. I realized that it was a choice to be guilty. And as soon as you stop being guilty, someone else is to blame for what I was guilty of. I choose not to blame myself. It's often difficult for me. I'm indecisive. But I recognize this peculiarity of mine. I love my house. And I love being alone in it. I generally love solitude. And I'm no longer ashamed to say that this is so. I lack emotions, and I will try to get them. I get read a lot and I love that fact. But most of all I am happy when I can help. When I'm useful. And I wish you to become friends with yourself in all respects. Be able to feel, understand and accept yourself. And nothing more. Just this. Because no matter how life turns out, only connection with yourself makes it possible to live and live your life. Just this! And in this you can be happy and calm. And is it important!!!!