Today I have 2 free hours in my work schedule. And of course, I arrived at the car wash, taking advantage of the moment. I have already developed such a ritual over the past couple of years. For me, this is a place where not only my car can be washed, but also where I can do nothing. Just sit with a cup of coffee, think, analyze. Be alone with yourself. The last 3 working days have been difficult. To be honest, I was reloaded. When there is a client in front of you and you are conducting a consultation, this is client time. You are here for him. You need to track your feelings and experiences and be able to contain them. No matter what you hear, see, no matter how much your heart breaks from pain, from strong feelings, during the consultation you should be calm. Maximum, if it will be useful for therapy, if it will be useful for the client, then you can voice them. But falling into your feelings is not professional. Moreover, you need to withstand the client’s feelings and support him, provide him with help. This time is entirely for the client. You are not here. There is a psychologist. But the psychologist is also a living person. He has feelings, at least. Therefore, then, outside of therapy, with yourself, with a therapist or with a supervisor, you can open your “chest” and meet your feelings in order to work through them. And be ready again for a new meeting with the client. Today I am ready to face my strong feelings that I have been holding back for the last few days. It looks like it will be grief, sadness for lost time, anger at what is happening and powerlessness, that I can no longer help deal with the problem and change, improve the condition. It would be a pity if it were four years earlier...But this problem is no longer within my competence. And you also need to find the strength to say this, to say that another specialist is urgently needed. Recommend it. Say, looking into the eyes that are full of confidence, that you are that specialist. Eyes in which there is fear of unpredictability and hope for the best. These moments are always difficult for me. But this is my profession. I chose her. I know how to deal with this. And I think I'm coping.